Published on 2025-10-23 18:51:50 -0500 by hyperreal
I haven't dealt with trolls and rage-baiters since Twitter. Today I had to deal with them on Bsky. Among them was a Bsky technical advisor with 61.4K followers....
Published on 2025-10-18 05:27:26 -0500 by hyperreal
I hate feeling like I'm being treated like a freak that people are squeamish about. The only people whom I don't feel like this around are my family. I don't kn...
Published on 2025-10-15 21:09:50 -0500 by hyperreal
I need hugs but I'm afraid to ask for them.
Published on 2025-10-15 12:47:53 -0500 by hyperreal
I'm kind of grumpy today. And sad. I try tracing the cause of these feels and I just end up at existence.
Published on 2025-10-14 19:26:22 -0500 by hyperreal
I'm kind of sad. I don't know why. I did good today. My brain just turned on me all of a sudden.
Published on 2025-10-01 22:22:01 -0500 by hyperreal
The automatic depressive thoughts broke containment earlier than usual tonight. I slightly feel like crying but I don't think it will manifest. I suspect this h...
Published on 2025-08-02 19:45:48 -0500 by hyperreal
Hopelessness and sadness is back. I'm not feeling up for any gaming tonight, but at least I sort of feel like doing TryHackMe rooms.
Published on 2025-07-08 21:23:19 -0500 by hyperreal
I'm gonna have a root beer float tonight like I did yesterday. I don't expect it to improve my mood. All I can reasonably expect from it is that it will taste g...
Published on 2025-06-24 22:56:58 -0500 by hyperreal
I was looking at comments on a friend's Bsky post and saw a comment from someone who ghosted me on Twitter a couple years ago. I didn't even know why they ghost...
Published on 2025-06-05 21:47:15 -0500 by hyperreal
Feeling kind of anhedonic at the moment. Ice cream didn't help. I kind of want to go to bed but it's too early yet. I feel like crying but I'm too numb for tear...
Published on 2025-06-05 18:31:29 -0500 by hyperreal
I had intense anxiety earlier, so I took clonazepam. I'm less viscerally anxious now, but now I have automatic negative thoughts.
Published on 2025-05-25 17:03:00 -0500 by hyperreal
Anxiety and sadness is bad at the moment.
Published on 2025-05-23 17:20:00 -0500 by hyperreal
If I'm sad and it's nobody's fault, then it's the universe's fault. But the universe doesn't have even any moral agency, so you can't really hold it accountable...