hyperreal's hyper-feels, and sometimes hypo-feels. You might find these relatable, crazy, and/or just plain cringe. Regardless, read at your own peril.

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Entry 0037

Published on 2025-08-04 13:56:18 -0500 by hyperreal
Not sure if "people-pleaser" is a good characteristic to have when applying for a cybersecurity-related job. Or at least not a good idea to mention it in one's ...

Entry 0036

Published on 2025-08-04 01:50:49 -0500 by hyperreal
When people who are not on the schizophrenia spectrum tell me, "Oh yeah I get paranoid too when I have THC", after I tell them why I can't have THC, I don't kno...

Entry 0035

Published on 2025-08-02 19:45:48 -0500 by hyperreal
Hopelessness and sadness is back. I'm not feeling up for any gaming tonight, but at least I sort of feel like doing TryHackMe rooms.

Entry 0034

Published on 2025-07-20 22:15:56 -0500 by hyperreal
The universe sends me automatic negative thoughts as I try to play ESO. It's so cruel. I haven't done anything to deserve this. The way I look at this situation...

Entry 0033

Published on 2025-07-15 21:41:38 -0500 by hyperreal
Me: Is she really that excited about the topic, or was she trying to make me think she's crazy/hyper in an attempt to get me to avoid her?

Entry 0032

Published on 2025-07-08 21:23:19 -0500 by hyperreal
I'm gonna have a root beer float tonight like I did yesterday. I don't expect it to improve my mood. All I can reasonably expect from it is that it will taste g...

Entry 0031

Published on 2025-07-08 14:15:33 -0500 by hyperreal
I want to do something that (1) benefits the FOSS and digital rights community, and/or (2) increases my employability as a sysadmin/DevOps specialist. I have a ...

Entry 0030

Published on 2025-07-03 20:05:05 -0500 by hyperreal
There are going to be booms in the sky for my town's firework show in about an hour. I hate booms. Nor am I feeling particularly proud of this country right now...

Entry 0029

Published on 2025-07-03 13:26:44 -0500 by hyperreal
I think the paranoia is gone today. At least I don't have any ruminations or anything. I'm still real cranky and irritable. I went to the grocery store to stock...

Entry 0028

Published on 2025-07-02 21:04:31 -0500 by hyperreal
The paranoia I had earlier is mostly gone, but I still feel it in the back of my mind. I'm also in a state where I feel depressed and unable to enjoy things. I ...