hyperreal's hyper-feels, and sometimes hypo-feels. You might find these relatable, crazy, and/or just plain cringe. Regardless, read at your own peril.

Archives for November 2025

Entry 0081

Published on 2025-11-27 19:07:44 -0600 by hyperreal
I took a nap after Thanksgiving dinner, around 3 pm. I woke up at around 5:30 pm and felt tired, so I decided I wanted a cup of coffee. I drank the coffee.

Entry 0080

Published on 2025-11-23 13:52:37 -0600 by hyperreal
My anxiety has spiked, my brain feels chaotic, like I'm going off the rails (pun not intended), nervous system is a shaken up snow globe. When this happens, I f...

Entry 0079

Published on 2025-11-22 08:56:37 -0600 by hyperreal
I'm feeling pretty contented this morning. No major anxiety or sadness. I'm currently working on a project to get my HTTP content and Gemini protocol content in...

Entry 0078

Published on 2025-11-21 18:08:07 -0600 by hyperreal
I'm sad, scared, and irritable. My brain is empty -- I don't have anything else to say about these feels.

Entry 0077

Published on 2025-11-21 11:56:11 -0600 by hyperreal
This is just a test of a new workflow.

Entry 0076

Published on 2025-11-21 09:21:16 -0600 by hyperreal
Anxiety spike. Debating whether I should take a clonazepam or not, or maybe half of one. I haven't had caffeine in two hours, so the acute effects of caffeine s...

Entry 0075

Published on 2025-11-19 13:10:26 -0600 by hyperreal
I've been having this recurring dream where we lost our house, or had to move to a new house for some reason. I don't understand why I keep having this particul...

Entry 0074

Published on 2025-11-19 05:30:43 -0600 by hyperreal
It is 5:30 am. I'm scared in the general sense.

Entry 0073

Published on 2025-11-14 08:58:27 -0600 by hyperreal
Big sigh. I woke up this morning, got my coffee and cigarettes to go into the garage. I'm groggy. My dad is in there. He starts swearing at political shit on th...

Entry 0072

Published on 2025-11-09 19:33:32 -0600 by hyperreal
Me: [Sees a post on the fediverse that contains a critical undertone or explicit criticism.]

Entry 0071

Published on 2025-11-09 15:59:36 -0600 by hyperreal
My anxiety and executive functioning is just crap today. It's taking me forever to do things that on a good day I can do fairly quickly. I had to take a full cl...

Entry 0070

Published on 2025-11-06 13:08:18 -0600 by hyperreal
I'm sad/anxious/scared/automatic negative thoughts. But I'm going to visit my grandpa today and we will watch our shows.

Entry 0069

Published on 2025-11-04 23:19:15 -0600 by hyperreal
Braindump commencing...

Entry 0068

Published on 2025-11-03 11:18:49 -0600 by hyperreal
I intend to go for a walk outside soon. I'm dreading it. Arguing with myself, rationalizing staying home. I know I'll feel better if I do it, but most of the ti...

Entry 0067

Published on 2025-11-02 22:32:19 -0600 by hyperreal
For some reason that eludes me at the moment, I am procrastinating playing a video game. I feel compelled to doomscroll.