Entry 0087

My disability benefits are up for review this year. Next week, I have an in-person appointment with the social security administration, where they'd have a doctor (probably a psychiatrist) interview me to determine my eligibility for benefits.

They've never done this before, so I'm nervous about what's going to happen. Hopefully the truth is good enough for them to decide that I'm still eligible to receive benefits, but in general I'm not very good at selling the truth, especially when I have to speak. I have to try to not be so passive and speak up for myself.

I don't know how many people are going to be in the interview, but I'd imagine they'd want more than one set of eyes on me. My ability to "act casual for the sake of social appropriateness" is impaired by my anxiety, so at the very least they'll be able to see that I'm abnormally nervous.