Entry 0075

I've been having this recurring dream where we lost our house, or had to move to a new house for some reason. I don't understand why I keep having this particular dream, and I'd rather not speculate. IRL my parents are not at particular risk of defaulting on their mortgage or anything like that. So it's kind of baffling.

Some notable aspects of the dreams include:

• The prospect of losing something that was a significant part of my childhood and adulthood.
• In some of the dreams, we are in a new abitrary generic house, and the new house has a bug infestation problem, in particular house centipedes, which I abhor.

So I think I can be fairly certain that these recurring dreams are at least fear-adjacent. Maybe it's some kind of unconscious fear. Also notable is that recently my dad was entertaining the idea of moving to a new house, mentioning certain houses he's seen for sale that he would want. I do recall kind of dwelling on what the consequences of that would be for me. Though, to be clear, my dad was not serious, and I don't think my parents have any intention of moving to a new house. But the idea of it might have stirred something deep in me.