Entry 0073

Big sigh. I woke up this morning, got my coffee and cigarettes to go into the garage. I'm groggy. My dad is in there. He starts swearing at political shit on the news. Then a segment about AI comes on. He starts making all these AI talking points that I've heard countless times before. My nephew comes in. They both start talking out of their ass about what they think AI is.

The ignorance and arrogance makes me cringe. I don't have the ability nor the energy to explain AI to them. It's especially tiring to me, because while it may be new to them, these talking points have been discussed, debunked, and counteracted dozens of times on every podcast I've been listening to and half of all social media I've consumed.

It's also happened before where some family members have tried to explain tech topics in a confident know-it-all manner while ignoring or dismissing my attempts to explain them. For some reason they forget that I have a computer science degree and spend the majority of my time tinkering with computers and technology. My speech articulation issues and alogia don't allow me to present myself in a confident authoritative manner that people would be inclined to listen to.

I can't help but wonder what my family's daily working understanding of me is. Like, I often feel like they think I'm some lame useless idiot. The funny thing is I would prefer not to have to speak to explain what certain tech topics are, because I know I will butcher it and it would come across as broken and nearly unintelligible to them. So I often feel like there's a misinformation fire burning around me and I'm powerless to do anything about it.