Entry 0066

I went to bed around midnight. Woke up at 4:30 am. Stayed up for bit, then went back to sleep. Woke up at 6:15 am in goblin mode. Misophonia. If visceral anxiety doesn't subside in an hour or so, I'll need a clonazepam.

Something that exacerbated this is that mom just asked me to go to the grocery store. Saying no will make me a jerk because they need stuff to make dinner. I hadn't anticipated going in public today, so it makes me nervous and cranky. I'll try asking if she can order the groceries for curbside pickup but she'll likely make a fuss about it as if it's an inconvenience.