Entry 0041

I've wasted half the day ruminating about a social interaction that doesn't even matter anymore. Why do I continue to socialize when it has the potential to ruin my day like this.

I think this is something a therapist might be able to help me with. Ways and techniques for reassuring myself and not going down a rabbit hole. I'm just not willing to play trial and error trying to find the right therapist. And I'm not sure if I can even find a good therapist that accepts medicaid. I don't really know if psychotherapy counts as medical care that would be covered by medicaid. I can ask around about neurodiversity-friendly therapists in my area, but I have a feeling it would be like trying to find a needle in a haystack. The therapists I know about IRL seem to be clueless about the neurodiversity movement, probably think of autism as a mental disorder that needs to be treated, and are neuro-assimilationists.