Entry 0038

Whenever I take my night time med, which is the anti-psychotic, I feel this sort of "dysphoria". I mean this in the sense of being the opposite of euphoria. When I put the pill into my mouth, it is like derealization/depersonalization and existential angst packed into one brief and sharp thought-feeling. I don't know if there is much to analyze here. It just seems to be a result of me having a deep dislike of being stuck taking these meds for the rest of my life.