Entry 0017

My brain has encountered a sleep-blocking bug. A social event aftershock intrusive thought loop. A surge of anxiety and adrenaline or whatever that keeps me awake worrying. This is what happens on days I attend social events. I already even took clonazepam a little earlier, so all I can do is just sit here and mentally writhe and ruminate. Sometimes I can distract myself enough with activities but other times like tonight the intrusive thoughts are too powerful. It's going to take some extra effort to bring myself to the bathroom to brush my teeth, because my nervous system prioritizes the worrying. Any other activity is against the grain.