Entry 0016

Went to my niece's birthday party today. There were a lot of people. I was there for a couple hours, but went outside frequently to breathe and be away from the crowd in the party room. I came home and took a nap for about an hour, but I am still so physically tired. I'm sluggish, lethargic. I had a cup of coffee but it did nothing besides taste good.

I have no energy to do anything. I was going to write up some documentation on my home assistant setup to add to my Techne knowledge base, as well as add a page to my website detailing my homelab/networking setup, but it's going to have to wait until I regain some energy.

After a big social event I consistently have after-shock intrusive thoughts, and that's what's happening now. I'm also anhedonic, which may have more to do with the lack of energy. I want to do something but anything I think of doing doesn't give me "anticipation dopamine" that motivates me to do it. I don't anticipate anything to be rewarding or pleasurable. At least tomorrow is the release day for the new Elder Scrolls Online content. That might give me enough "anticipation dopamine" because it's something new, but it still depends on whether this low mood storm blows over. Possibly after sufficient rest and nutrtition I will feel better tomorrow.